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Archive for March, 2013

January, February, and now most of March 2013 have come and gone and I don’t know where the time went. Much knitting has been started, finished and given away. Why is it so hard to keep track of things? Life goes on and all of the sudden you just can not figure out how or where it went.

I have had a bit of an epiphany over these past few months after my mother-in-law passed away. What has happened in having to figure out what to do with a house full of life’s accumulations, is that, it has made me stop and think about my own life’s accumulations and who would have to deal with all of the stuff.  Suddenly it all seems a bit futile. Shelves of old knitting magazines. most of which I haven’t looked at in the last 4 years since I moved them from one set of shelves to another, without really looking at them then. I did give two large boxes away a few months back and now it is time to start in earnest getting rid of more of them along with a lot of other things that are in boxes and have no purpose.

In going through some of my mother-in-laws items there were hand knit items that most likely her mother had made. No longer wearable, and not really meaningful to anyone today. It sort of made me think of things I have not let go of as well, old sweaters no one wants or will ever wear again. Not baby items that might actually be useful at some future point in time. Old things, that were made years ago and sizes ago as well, styles that if they do come back the yarn will just not have with stood the ravages of time.

Now why did this not hit me when I had to deal with my own mother’s belongings, I do not know. Maybe, because my sisters helped in taking some of the item, maybe, because we had already gone through things when she moved into a smaller apartment. Maybe because some of it is still in a store room at my home. Maybe because some of the items at my mother-in-law’s home should be important to someone, they have monetary value if not memory values. Yet it seems that no one wants them and that is sad.

I love making things and giving them to people, who I hope will enjoy them. I do not keep many of the items I make, I do not need that many cowls, scarves, afghans, or any of the other items. The joy is in the new yarn, the new pattern, the making and the giving.

“O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console; to be understood, as to understand; to be loved, as to love. For it is in giving that we receive. It is in pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.” (Part of the prayer of St. Francis”)

So though sometimes these lessons are painful, it becomes a time to let go of the past and move forward. Accept that at the time they served the purpose as will new things now serve their purpose.  But do not drag the past into the  now and even more so do not drag it into the future.

” for the former things are passed away. And he that sat on the throne said, Behold, I make all things new” Rev. 21; parts of 4 & 5.

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